and if young hearts should explode

4:05pm: chris donaldson
462 lakewood drive
port austin, MI 48467

do it.

11:20pm: my cat died today and it should have been you instead.

3:25am: i hate it
thati broke paiges arm. that people think im violent. that celias parents are strict. that my printer is broken. that my copy machine is broken. that fake problems shirts take years to get done. that people are opinionated. that people are quick to point the finger. that people are arrogant and dont show any respect for anyone else. that people are being fucking shot to death thousands of miles away and i dont know the first thing about whats going on. that i get called on my shit because im mis-informed. that i cant spell very well. that im not 18 yet. that ill have to give up my dreams to become an adult someday. that my zine sucked and i have writers block. that people wont give me a chance. that i wont give people a chance. that everyone judges on false statements or word of mouth basis. that people get drunk. that people get stoned. that people drive drunk. that people fight at shows. that people fight. that my scalp is itchy. that ill never do 90% of the shit i talk about. that not matter how hard i try to be the honest sinsire dedicated person ive always strived to be, ill always fuck it up and do something so meaningless that will set me back that much farther from my hopes and aspirations. this will be my last entry for a while.

2:16pm: slumberinghearts: chris donaldson, i know you're not a woman beater.

1:33pm: Zesty D 13: wendels wrong. body slamming woman is beating them.

1:28pm: Khrona: I don't think your a woman beater.

1:23pm: lividkitten3: so i hear your a woman beater

11:47pm: i got harassed on 5th ave by someone ive never met before. it went along the lines of "you faggot. you fucking beat girls?". i think im just gonna quit leaving my house.

1:55am: just to clear up all the rumors...
going around, i feel i need to explain. so:

1. i did have all intentions of killing paige, but she simply wouldnt die.

2.ill do it again

3. feel bad? bia had it commin, she was talkin MAAAAAAD shit bout my crew

4. i didnt eat the pizza today because i poisoned it, to kill everyone else

5. i replaced her pain killers with viagra, so her vagina will become errect and hopefully deterorate

6. ive been practicing that body slam by beating celia on a regular basis

7. ive secretly been doing cocaine for the 4 almost 5 years ive said i was straight edge


just thought i should clear that up. go on with your lives

thanks

management

12:24am: Dead End Stars: Chris, I hear you've been a little, well, out of control lately, and I want you to know if you ever need anything, and I mean anything, let me know. Think about that before you hurt someone next time.

4:03pm: Mary Jo Tracy: edo you think itd be possible
Mary Jo Tracy: for you to give me a ride to paiges funeral tonite
Mary Jo Tracy: if you go
Mary Jo Tracy: id think you're going
Mary Jo Tracy: because well, you know
Mary Jo Tracy: you did it and all.

3:58pm: RebelManChe: oh i heard that paige needs to surgery

3:04pm: AxWintersxLove: ARM BREAKER!

1:57pm: i did it

7:10pm:

10:42pm: the prisoner in baghdad got his head cut off today. i feel really really sick. i think im gonna go to bed.

2:46am: now is when it all makes sense
what makes sense?
you do, now i understand everything. i understand you completely

8:45pm: punk rock bagel fight

whos goin

11:24pm: i like it when people heckle our band not at one show, but two shows.
it makes them look cool and mature
at least i think so

1:26pm: lacrosse5420 [1:23 PM]: hoobastank and lostprophets played lastnight

lacrosse5420 [1:24 PM]: me and chris hardcore danced to a lostprophets song and these gurls were amazed like following us asking us to teach them and were like telling us we are hot

CDSkates1 [1:26 PM]: i would have never figured you guys were into hardcore dancing

1:05pm: rip the van

12:22am: tonight was good

12:03am: Porkboy1: like drink soda every day
CDSkates1: your teeth will rot
Porkboy1: exactly
Porkboy1: so i hate you

11:38pm: hchrisbooyah: my room needs you to clean it
CDSkates1: my dick needs you to suck it
hchrisbooyah: hahahhahahaha

12:16am: suck on it until your gums bleed